... and I am down with the blues.
*sighs* I am down in the dumps you guys. Have you guys ever felt like everything you do is just not good enough or up to the standard as compared to everyone else in your group?
This feeling suck ass, man! I'm suppose to be focusing on my second research paper but I'm too sad and unmotivated to do it. Ever since I've received my result for research paper one, I just felt so demotivated. I am thankful that I passed it and all, but my result suck balls! I barely passed the damn thing! It annoys me because I actually tried my best to complete it and I thought I could get a good mark on it... but no.... The same also goes for my exam results. Just a pass. However, everyone else seems to be getting super high marks, 70%, 80% and 90% and they are receiving scholarships and job offers left and right, and I'm just here like... "Hey, I passed. Welp. :I " I know I shouldn't complain and all because I know some people do work super hard to get what they want but
I can't help but feel so stupid and inadequate as compared to my other classmates. Is this what it feels like... to know your level of intelligence can never match up to the international level/standard?
Holy crap, this sucks! I need to study more or something... but I feel so depressed and stupid... ;_;
Aaaaaaaaaaaa! Do you guys have any motivational or inspiring books or talks that you guys can recommend to me? I seriously need a boost of motivation to get me going. I think I ran out of it a long time ago..... *cry*
I'm sorry for the negative post everyone, I just need to vent and I don't have anywhere else to go for that... *cries more*